This is the newest member of the family: Butterscotch, the horse.

He is all boy!!!

backstory: Baylee and Brennan share a room together. From time to time Brennan will play with Baylee's toys. There is a certain baby doll he has claimed as his own. He will snuggle with it, tuck it in at nap time and such.....

Tonight when we were getting ready for bed and I asked him to go and get his baby. He walks over to it and looks at me and says, "no baby......car...." he picks up the car and goes "vroom, vroom" all over the place. I just had to laugh....that proves that he is all boy, men all over the world have been saying "no baby....car, go vroom, vroom" since the beginning of time......

For Heidi

This is my fav. Taylor Swift song. It is not a Christmas song, but I love it. It just reminds me to see things through the eyes of my children and remember what childhood is like for them. I can't listen to it without crying. Go to playlist.com and take a listen.

I'm five years old
It's getting cold out
Got my big coat on

I hear your laugh
And look up at smilin at you
I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch
And the tractor rides
Look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs
And fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm 13 now
And don't know how
My friends could be so mean
I come home crying
And you hold me tight
And grab the keys

And we drive and drive
Unil we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop
Til i forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughin
On the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father
His strengh is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out
He's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found
From back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you're talkin to me
It's the age of princesses and priate ships
And the seven dwarves
My Daddy's smart
And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side
Even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew
So I'm takin this chance to say
I had the best day with you today

Happy Birthday, my sweet girl!!!!

I can't believe my girl is 6 years old today. I remember feeling so anxious about having a daughter when I was pregnant with her. I mean, I've always been a tomboy myself and God knows I still can't fix my own hair, so what in the world would I do with bows and dresses, and not to forget the endless pairs of shoes to color coorninate with the outfits....does it ever end. NO, look at my own closet.....even a tomboy must have matching boots ya know...anyway. When they brought Baylee to me after my surgery and I held her I just cried and cried. She was so beautiful. All of my fears where put to ease. She was only a baby and she just needed love like any other baby. And love her I did.

A Labor of Love

I had to share this story, I knew other Moms who happen to read from time to time would understand and laugh (or cry) with me.

So.......Baylee has been saving up her $$ all year to buy butterscotch (a HUGE horse). I mean when she gets $$ for allowance, from grandparents, whatever, she has been putting it back all year to buy this horse. I FINALLY found one for less than $250.00 on craigslist. Her birthday is coming up, and I bought it for her. It would take her three years or more to save all that $$. I bring this thing home (he is massive, I have a feeling Brennnan will be a cowboy everyday)....so I had a thought, I'll redecorate her room for her birthday with horse decor.....so I shop, and shop, and shop some more to find all the perfect stuff that she'd like. I never found everything I wanted. Well I can't redecorate without cleaning out all her old stuff too. After two bags of trash, (I hate McD's happy meal toys, I think they multiply when your not watching), one pile of goodwill stuff and injuries only football players get, I'm done.....her room is so cute, she slept downstairs last night, so we are going to go check out the strange noises coming from her room in a bit.

Now for the football injury......I have my own system going, this pile here and that pile there. Its a mess, but its my mess and I know what everything is. My dog, Casey wanted in on all the action so he is in there too. I go to step over a pile and realize I'm going to step on him so I moved my leg and it ended up in a box, well the box wasn't going to support my big self and it gave way and fell over, it took me down with it. I landed on my left side, my upper jaw hit the edge of a very strong storage box, I have a huge bruise on the side of my face, I think I may have dislocated my shoulder (at the very least its got some major deep tissue bruising) and my hip that gave me so much trouble when I was carrying Brennan is killing me. At 12:30 am, the fight was over and I had won. For a moment there I thought the room might win and the Mom team might concede, but I didn't......I'd attach pics but my digital camera lens is broken so I'm having to use old school 35mm.....and it doesn't upload :(

School's Out!!!!!!!!!! HOO RA!!!

This is the first time in my adult life I have wished for a "snow day" for selfish reasons. Really, if your going to work outside the home, there is no better job than working in the school system. Where else do you get snow days, Christmas break and the summer off.....I love it.

ok, enough about my job, I have visions of snowmen in my head, followed by endless cups of hot chocolate!!!!!!!!!!!

my silly girl

Baylee comes and sits down beside me today and leans her head into my shoulder....this is the conversation that follows....

Baylee "Mom, what happens if I don't find the perfect man"
Mom (after taking a moment to do a double take at what just came out of my daughters mouth)....."honey...why do you need to find the perfect man???" (trying to ask questions to find out what in the world is going on in that head of hers)
Baylee....."so I can get married"
Mom........"why do you want to get married and find the perfect man"
Baylee......"well, you did"
Mom........(not knowing if I should laugh or cry)....."I did?"
Baylee......"yes, Daddy!!!" (like duh)
Mom......."so why is getting married so important"
Baylee....."because I want to know what its like"
Mom.......(shuttering at what might come out next) "what being married is like?"
Baylee...."yea, you know the flowers and the cake, you get that whole big cake like you and Daddy did and all those flowers....I just wanna know what its like when you find the perfect man and get all that cake"....

.....its all about the cake and flowers, baby!, and I'm fine if she continues to believe that until she is like ummm....30."